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Sorry for the silence.  I’ve been a little out of sorts the last week or so.  I switched to a new assignment at work this week, so there’s been a little stress there.  I think I made a major mistake today, too.  For what I’m charging them, I can’t make any mistakes at all.  Ugh.

So.  I’ve been really really grumpy, more so than usual.  I think poor Sarah was ready to kill me last week.  I’d promised myself I wouldn’t turn into a complete dick when I started T, but man – I don’t even realize what I’m doing till it’s too late.  The doctor may have some insight when I see him in a couple of weeks.  It may have something to do with my shot cycle.

I had an ‘I must be out of my damn mind’ moment last night.  I hate those.  I get really close to wanting to stop.  You know, I’m of the age where hormones weren’t an option unless you were in real danger of self-harm.  Hell, I thought I was doing good just being a dyke in 1998.  But then I look at my clothes.  And my truck.  And my haircut.  And I think about the funny looks I get in the ladies’ room, because the little blonde bimbos know as well as I do I don’t belong in there.   You know, finding a place to take a leak really shouldn’t be a source of stress.  Think about it sometime.

By god, the workouts are working.  I was goofing around and flexed in the mirror the other night and damn – I’ve got a shape. My ass is actually shrinking. And I’ve only been at this for a little over a week.

Your Love – The Outfield…is no longer in my range.  Made me sad, I sang the shit out of that one back in the day.  Maybe I’ll drop the key and cut a nice smoky version of it.  We’ll see, GarageBand never wants to cooperate with me.

All right kids, it’s dinnertime.  Questions? Comments? Criticisms?


Posted January 30, 2012 by justanotherfatboy in Uncategorized

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  1. So you’re feeling more energetic huh ?

  2. Ok. I have a couple of questions.
    Do you find that people (strangers in public) are taking you for a man moreso now than before?

    And this one might be too personal. Feel free to ignore, but how does the T interact with your menstral cycle? You mention having crazy mood swings. I couldn’t imagine having PMS and a testosterone high at the same time. I’d end up in jail.

    I really love reading about your journey (god is that an overused buzzword or what). I think it’s incredibly interesting, and I wish you all the best.

    • Funny you should ask – I passed better in my 20’s. Seriously, I had gay men fooled. Well, not all of them of course, but at least three. I think I don’t pass so well anymore because I’m obviously older and not just a late bloomer or something. If you don’t look at me real hard I’ll pass, but look closer. No stubble. My skin is too pretty. And then if I open my mouth it’s really down the drain. The hormones need more time to work.

      Having both kinds of hormones going at once is a dangerous thing (see my post The Communists Are Invading). I was always nasty mean when I had PMS, but having them both last month…dude, I could have ripped someone’s throat out with my teeth and laughed while I did it. I’m hoping I’m about done with all that business.

      Glad you enjoy it.

      • My only PMS symptom is homocidal rage, so I get where you’re coming from. It seems like it’s getting worse as I get older too.

  3. Oh, another personal question to go along with the last, will you eventually stop menstrating? What about menopause when you’re older?

  4. Hey! I am finally putting the pieces together now as to why my dude can be a dick sometimes. I guess if he has a T-surge, he feels the need to throw a piece of chalk or something. You’re in a unique situation and I am completely fascinated. You get to know both sides of the fence! Pretty amazing. And be nice to Sarah! You can blame it on hormones now but eventually it won’t matter and she will attack you in your sleep. I love you, Erin! I’m glad you have the courage to take the steps to make your physical Delphi match up with your mental self.

    Besides the balls.

  5. Oops. Selph not Delphi. Autocorrect sucks it.

    So do I call you Layne now? Or do you still answer to Erin? Or should I just call you sugardick and be done with it?

  6. Crystal – I like sugardick. Please start calling him that.

  7. That’s it. I’m getting “Sugardick” tattooed across my chest. That’s gangsta.

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